I just read my friend Val's blog about being thankful for the "normal" times. I can understand that...to me it translates to the time when a thousand stresses are not coming down on you all at once. Where you can actually go home and have a nice routine day without major interruption. Unfortunately as of late, I haven't been able to really find my footing. I've had all intentions on getting back to my "normal" routine, but I keep having to take detours along the way. It's been really hard to do all the things I want and need to do, that I'm finding myself shutting down instead of accomplishing what should be done. Granted, I'm a little high maintenance, and demanding on myself (knowing's half the battle) but I generally get things done. Example: Last night after getting home from the recording session (which went very well btw) all I wanted to do was eat and watch TV. What I should have done was eat something light, work-out, put away clothes, change the kitty litter, shower and go to bed. NOPE...I sat down in front of the TV and ate a chicken roll (it's like a calzone), then a few pieces of chocolate, then a grab bag of the new Spicy & Sweet Doritos, followed by a low carb ice cream bar, some coconut macaroons, and washed it all down with a diet coke. UM...I think I lost it folks! I knowingly ingested my entire days worth of calories in one sitting...the bag of doritos is 400 calories alone. Granted I hardly ate anything earlier before leaving for the recording session and I was starving by the time I got out + over tired + I got lost on the way to the recording session and walked a straight hour quickly and in high heels to find my way (I walked about 2 miles out of my way and had to walk 2 miles back because I made a wrong turn - ouch my poor feet). So by the time I got home I was in the f#@& it mentality...all I wanted to do was veg. and eat...so I did. :( That was the old me...about 10 years ago, where I'd go hog wild in front of the TV and just eat tons of junk. I wish I had read Rose's blog before, and I would have realize that my bad decisions were based on being over tired...I just can't get a handle on things because I'm over tired. I keep trying to get more sleep, but it just seems like I'll never catch up...I'm sooo tired...wahhhh!!!
On a positive note* I did end up walking at a brisk pace for a solid hour and covered alot of ground, and the day before I had a great interval training session on the treadmill...and today's plan is the same...in fact my ETA at the gym is 2:15pm today and I'm gonna rock the treadmill once again. Another positive note is that I'm done with recording tracks for the movie and I can concentrate now solely on my opera repertoire that I have to learn...and the cabaletta for Prendi is almost perfect. All I have left for competition preparation is to memorize my French aria and to clean up the coloratura in my German piece...and of course keep working and perfecting all the other pieces as well. The other great thing is that all this preparation for the competition will also prepare me for the end of the year Masterclass at Dicapo Opera...This Masterclass is what casts us for next season at the opera house...so I should be in pretty good shape when it comes :)
Ok, I feel a little more sane...and believe it or not, I think Tomorrow's gonna be a really good day for me, I can just feel it...but then again...I could have just jinxed myself...lol
Have a great day!